Friday, 23 June 2017

When She...

When she loves something but doesn't get reciprocal;
When she dreams of something but doesn't get support;
When she wants to achieve something but doesn't get ease.

Nothing but deadlock.

Like the sun that wants the star.

Collide...
that she loses her desire to shine.

Monday, 12 June 2017

...

Perasaanku sakit.
Terasa denyutan di sini, di hati.
Seolah ada bayangan akan waktu mendatang yang suram.
Gelap, tiada keberadaan.
Batin memaksaku untuk menjerit.
Benarkah sesingkat ini?
Tak ada kah kesempatan lagi?

Tuhan...
Aku belum ingin kembali.

Wednesday, 3 May 2017

Forgetting about Him

I've been too far from Him.
I've been too far chasing this dunyaa.
I've been too far thinking about the things which aren't worth to.

I've been really busy to run towards a boy who's not really there that I'm being further from Him Who always is.
I've been really busy to make the boy love me that I'm getting Him abandon me.
I've been really busy to cry for him that I'm being more careless about the sins which should be much way torturing.

I've been forgetting about Him.



Monday, 24 April 2017

She Feels Sad

She feels sad when the story of movie or drama doesn't end like she expected.
She feels sad when she doesn't have enough money that leads her to have debt.
She feels sad when she thinks she hasn't loved her job yet.
She feels sad when she listens to BTS J-Hope's "Mama".
She feels sad when she compares her body to the girlbands'.
She feels sad when she is unable to do the things she likes, at home.
She feels sad when she realises that her body doesn't fit a dance move.
She feels sad when she sees the pictures of lovers.
She feels sad when she remembers that she only had one person that loves her back.
She feels sad when she thinks that her crush is not eager to have a chat with her.
She feels sad when she wonders when this waiting will end.

She feels sad when she loves something but doesn't get reciprocal.
She feels sad when she dreams of something but doesn't get support.
She feels sad when she wants to achieve something but doesn't get ease.

P.S.:
She feels sad when she thinks of the words to pour into this post.

Thursday, 23 March 2017

Do You Ever Miss Me?

Hi, Crush. Long time no hearing about you. How have you been last two days? I cannot believe that I could survive living the days without communicating with you.

And, as usual, the biggest question that has appeared on my mind is, don't you miss me? Because I do miss you, much much more than I miss my chocolate which I forgot where I did put it.

I saw your activities for times on instagram. Why don't you text me? I know that it's always me the one who texts first, but I postponed doing it since you said that you were out of data. Now, it looks like you have topped up your data, yet you stay still not giving me any notification about that. Or at least, why didn't you give a bit love to my posts to indirectly tell me that you are now online.

Ah... Now you get me some negative assumptions. You don't want me to text you, you don't want to have another unimportant chats that you had been doing with me with long teeth, and you don't want to make me dream about the happy days with you anymore.

Do you know how much I hold myself not to text you first to see if you care enough to look for me? And do you know how much longing I feel in every second I live while wandering about you?

For everything's sake, I solemnly swear that I really want to open my Line, search for the chat dialogue with your name on it, then send a "peek-a-boo" sticker to you. But one thing irritating called "doubt" has been forbidding me to do that; it whispers some words like "Let him miss you."

That is weird.

Because... One of things that has been taking over almost all parts of my brain is the question:

Do you ever miss me?